Thinking of You

I saw her again the other day
Flirting with her eyes
Looking at him as if he were me
Interest undisguised.
And it reminded me of how we met
When promises whispered lies
But when I looked into the future
Only darkness filled the skies.

Gritting my teeth I said good-bye
Choking up where it hurt inside
And now I’ve seen her with him
I know my decision was wise.
She doesn’t have a clue of forever
Nor of the gossamer passage of time
But now she’s gone I’m all alone
With memories that just won’t die.

I cry for love no longer mine
For the ache of “might have been”
Haunted by lies and promises
That now have flown with the wind.
Thinking, thinking, accompanied
By two little words, “if only”
It might have been, “if only, if only,
If only I say again.
(edited 2015)

I posted this poem sometime last year, but since I’m doing a series of my love poems and I have recently edited primarily the last verse of this one, I decided  to post it again.